It hurts to know that you dont trust me.
It hurts to know that we are argueing over a fucking note.
It hurts to know that you are hurt.
It hurts to know that you are to a brink of breaking down.

Oh yes it hurts,
Its ripping me apart.
Its ripping my insides so badly that I feel numb.

Its frustrating. It really is.

Fuck this shit.
You worth so much more.
And because of a fucking note, we are like this.
Perhaps we should start thinking if we are made for this.

Perhaps we should start thinking if its worth all the fucking hurt.

You were the best I ever had.
You were the one I loved the most.
You were the one I would willingly go out for.

Because I love you so dear.
I would let you go if you wanted to.

Cause it hurts not knowing.
Cause it hurts that I cant do a thing without knowing.
Cause it hurts that you are hurting.
Cause it hurts knowing that we won't last if we don't iron it out.

in a nutshell. It just hurts to the core.

Something is wrong,
I can feel it.
I am scared it goes down the same way as before.
omg fuck really.
please dont tell me you lost feelings for me.
omg please.

I don't think I can keep things for long.
They elude me somehow.

I am feeling shitty after today's few games. 

Simply put, I was feeling sick and I vomitted and I couldnt play. 

Seeing my team mates fucking suffering cause a heart pain in me.

fuck.

And I am not gonna let this one go.

Don't fuck around with me. 

I will make sure you get what is in coming.

Watch your back son.

Ugh. Sinking feeling in me.

HHAH depression? 

I dont know.

I dont know.

the only plus point today, is I know who I can count on. 

Thanks bro. Means alot to me.

Fuck the rest.

I decided to write posts that I dont want people to see right here.

So, today baby told me she is going drinking on saturday.
I was filled with fear ):
I don't want another incident to happen again.
I have no idea how am I to tell her that I don't like her going drinking ):

Whatever it is, its a wait and see.
I don't want to get hurt nor be disappointed again.

I miss you , love.

I still wonder why was it before, you felt so right. yet you were so wrong. huh kerrie lee.
sigh.
You won't see this i bet.
oh wells.